WB 3-2: so anxious

Summary

Hi-Hi again, I almost forgot to do my blog, lels. Anyways, this week has been pretty non-eventful and chill (definitely not gonna last for long). This week, me and period three worked music, which a few times we were almost not set up. . . but it's okay. I worked on fixing up my orientation dance to be easier, so that's a step, and the rest were working on their slides for orientation. For my odd periods, math has been pretty easy since the lesson we were taught by Ms. Chen is just about percentages, and Explore Wheel has been pretty much the same-- journal entry, chill time, and some sort of activity that includes being in a group with new people. The only thing that we did in her class that was mildly exciting was Tuesday's assignment to share information about ourselves, listen to information about the other people on your table, and prove you were actually listening by saying one interesting fact about someone. For my even periods, they were also pretty chill. In Science, Mrs. Arakawa has been assigning us some pretty hard assignments (it's only hard if you don't pay attention to the lesson and you keep talking over her as she tries to teach AHEM), but not THAT hard. Being a leader so far isn't that bad, but I wish my teammates didn't make me seem like the joker and they're all Batman. Where's all the energy??? Anyways, ELA has been easy since the assignments for PBL have been just answering questions, reading, and I ready. I like Mrs. Miya because shes so chill, and lets me eat in her class. I wish my class could calm down though, and my desk mate hasn't been coming to school as often as he would. Mr. Cole has been. . . acting off the rails as of late. Singing 'Chrissy Wake Up', continuing to yap for half the class about topics totally unrelated to what we need to do, and muttering to himself as he sits at his desk. Totally normal for him, why should I even be concerned? Social Studies is easy as well (when Mr. Cole locks in), doing some art assignments and just needing to pay attention in class. Still pretty nervous about memorizing my lines for Drama Club, but Ms. Amelia complimented me on my acting (she said that my Lydia was gonna make her cry), which boosted my confidence. A little, not really but still. 

Highlights + Lowlights

Highlights

Drama Club Success - I’m feeling a boost in confidence after Ms. Amelia told me my portrayal of Lydia was so good it was going to make her cry. Even though I’m still nervous about memorizing all my lines, knowing that my acting is hitting the right emotional notes makes the hard work feel worth it.

Creative Progress - I took the initiative to simplify my orientation dance to make it easier to execute. Between that and getting the music set up for period three, I feel like I’m staying on top of my responsibilities even when things get a little disorganized.

Easy Academic - Math and ELA have been a breeze this week. Learning percentages with Ms. Chen was straightforward, and Mrs. Miya’s ELA class is so chill that I can even eat while I get my PBL assignments and reading done.

Lowlights

Leadership Struggles - Being a leader is starting to feel a bit draining because my teammates lack energy. It’s frustrating when they treat me like the joker while they act like Batman; I really wish they would bring more excitement and effort to the group.

Classroom Distractions - I’m dealing with a lot of noise and inconsistency around me. My classmates in ELA need to calm down, my desk mate is constantly absent, and Mr. Cole has been acting pretty off the rails lately, spending half the time yapping about random topics or singing Chrissy Wake Up instead of focusing.

Difficult Science Assignments - Mrs. Arakawa’s assignments in Science are getting tougher. They aren’t impossible, but it’s hard to stay focused when people keep talking over her lessons, making it way more difficult to actually learn the material I need to finish the work.

Lessons Learned

Drama Club Success - I learned that external validation from someone I respect, like Ms. Amelia, can be a powerful remedy for self-doubt. Even when I feel nervous about the technical side of a performance, like memorizing lines, hearing that my acting has a real emotional impact reminds me that I belong on that stage.

Creative Progress - I realized that being proactive is the best way to handle potential chaos. By simplifying my dance and staying on top of the music setup, I learned that I can maintain control over my projects even when the environment around me is a bit disorganized or behind schedule.

Easy Academics - I’ve found that a relaxed environment can make learning much more manageable. When a teacher like Mrs. Miya or Ms. Chen keeps things straightforward and chill, it allows me to breeze through my assignments without feeling the typical school stress.

Leadership Struggles - This week taught me that being a leader is often more about managing energy than just managing tasks. It’s draining to be the only one bringing the hype, and I’m learning that I need to find new ways to motivate my teammates so I don’t feel like I’m the only one trying to keep the spirit alive.

Classroom Distractions - I learned that my ability to focus is heavily impacted by the people around me, whether it’s a chatty class or a teacher who gets easily sidetracked. I’ve realized I have to be extra disciplined to stay on track when the classroom environment starts to feel a bit unpredictable or off the rails.

Difficult Science Assignments - I discovered that the difficulty of a subject is often tied to the respect shown in the classroom. When people talk over the teacher, it makes the work feel ten times harder than it actually is, teaching me that paying attention during the lesson is the ultimate shortcut to success.

Magic Note

I included this note in my blog because it serves as a powerful reminder that my growth as a leader is being noticed, even when I feel like a joker compared to my teammates. Naomi’s message really touched me because she admitted that she didn't originally see me as someone who would be a responsible and focused group leader in Science. Seeing her write that she admires how I never hesitate to take on these roles helps shift my own self-perception and proves that my efforts to lock in are making a real impression on the people around me. It’s a boost of confidence that confirms my hard work now is setting me up to be successful in life.

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